You never know what you've got....

So, I woke up this morning expecting to be pumped full of ideas to write about. But I wasn't, and I was so put off by that. Usually when it comes to blogging, or writing in general I never run out of things to say.

Anyways, long story short I just left my blog alone and went to watch TV and sulk. Shortly after I went with my boyfriend to meet up with a couple friends for dinner and then a little bit of a road trip.

Unfortunately, after dinner, as we were pulling out of the parking lot we got into a little bit of a fender bender with another vehicle. Now, in my life I have only experienced one accident. It was of my own accord, driving a little too fast on a slick road. Nothing major came out of that, no injuries except to the car itself.
After that I was shaken up, and greatly disappointed in myself for not being able to save the car. (Silly isn't it?)
Needless to say, I was thankful to be alive, and very cautious with driving.

Its been close to three years since that accident. Today was a completely different experience.
I was sitting in the front passenger side, and out of no where I see a van coming towards us - quite fast, somehow our little car managed to come out with the least damage; thanks to our expert driver. - No one was injured and the car and van are both still fully functional after all is said and done.

At the initial impact of the van grazing our front end we were all a little stunned. It wasn't until we had parked safely out of the way of other vehicles and had a moment to let it all sink in that my friend who was driving, and owns the vehicle started to get upset - realizing that she had damage to her car. Myself. I came to the realization that it could have been much worse.

My first thought was thank God it isn't more serious. My following thoughts were a replay of what had happened, each replay with different outcomes... I could have been seriously hurt, or dead had anything gone a second differently. Thank God... literally, that we were all okay.

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I spent a while just dwelling on the fact that I was very much alive, but also, the things that "if it had turned out differently" I would have not been able to do, or would have wanted to do. For instance. All week I have been meaning to call my parents like, every day to say hi and chat. Unfortunately, I have been occupied by other things and still have not managed to keep my word on that. I have a perfectly good cell phone with me most of the day, and I still didn't think to use it.
- I really should work harder to keep my word on talking to the people who mean so much to me.

I also think, that I spend a lot of my time stressing about needless things, and letting the small things get to me. That is something I want to change.

Its true what the song says "You never know what you've got til its gone"... when you come close to death - even if it seems far fetched.. you realize that you're forgetting or missing a lot in life.
Don't take it all for granted.

Enjoy the sun, take pride in your accomplishments, and don't let a moment by without loving someone.

I will sleep very well in the arms of my beloved tonight.

Thank God.