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Wednesday, March 9, 2011

This is just another goodbye....or maybe just "see ya' later"

I won't be posting for a while, as I will be leaving my friends house ; thus my internet access becomes limited.
But, I will be sure to update when I get the chance... Only 5 more months until I move up to school and get settled into another life...

The joy of change, and a second chance.


Goodbye for now

B

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

I Guess We Could Call that a Vacation....

Wow.
It has been exactly 7 months since I last posted. I feel a bit bad for not keeping up with my blog, but life came around the corner at full tilt and I haven't had time to catch my breath until now.

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I shall update on the things that have happened over the past 7 months.

August: I don't remember much about the rest of August.
- I had a number of interviews and finally got hired as a Personal Support Worker.

September: September was dreary, but I tried to make the most of it with hopes that my new job would create a light at the end of the tunnel.
- As the rush of a new school year started for some, I sat wishing I hadn't missed out on yet another chance...but count my blessings one by one, because I would later come to realize that everything happens for a reason.

October: Halloween!
- I did not celebrate Halloween this year, instead I bought a few bags of candy and went home. I may have even worked that night.
- started to see my family regularly; coffee on Sundays, lunch on Saturdays, and a dinner in between. A refreshing change that made my heart full. I don't know why I ever let time get in the way of me and my family.

(Somewhere between October and November I applied for school)

November:  A month before December...
- November always makes me giddy for Christmas, but this year it was just another ordinary month... I didn't decorate. Although I did listen to Christmas music... but that's about as Christmas-y as I got.
- My boyfriend and I started looking at options for next September.

December: Christmas!
- celebrated my love's birthday
- started getting plans in place for a BIG step : moving back to my parents and away from my boyfriend (I will explain in further detail)
- Moving week!

January: Happy New Year
- I worked on New Years Eve - like the EVE of New Years... so I didn't get to toot a little horn or throw confetti. I just read a book. Hurrah.
- I was now living at my parents, proving to be a true test in a relationship of almost three years.
- Celebrated my nieces 5th Birthday, as well as my mother's and my own!
- also got a second job, shortly after left my other job to focus on the new job; better hours = better paycheck!

February: Love Month
- nothing overly special happened to me.
- celebrated more birthdays, and an anniversary with my family
- work, work work.

And that brings us to now.....

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So even though it doesn't seem like a whole lot has gone on in the past few months, there has been a ton of changes in my life - personally, mentally, physically.

One of the biggest changes has been, moving out of my own place with my boyfriend, back to my parents house ( he, to his parents house). After about two years of living together, we decided that it would benefit us to move back to our parents and start saving money for school, and get things in order to make our future better, because lets face it... two years of struggling financially, and physically is hard on a relationship, and the people in it.
So, we took the plunge... opposite of what most couples do. We planned our move around the Christmas holidays, as we would be visiting his family; He would stay there after the festivities, and I would continue on to move into my parents house and finish celebrating Christmas there.
At first, it didn't really seem real, just felt like we were both visiting our families for a time, and we would go back to our apartment and be reunited again. So the first couple weeks, for me, were easy.... not so much for him, which made me feel bad because I felt like I should have been having a hard time with it..
I guess that is just the way that things went though. I was ready for something like this, because I knew it would better everything. He, even knowing the benefits, didn't want to face the time it takes to get there.

Fast Forward to now.
I have been living at my parents for, officially 3 months! It has been great for me, and great for my family.
As has it been for my boyfriend, in different ways. As far as myself, I have become, not only healthier physically, but mentally as well. I am no longer searching for a light at the end of the tunnel, or fearing the worst... I am filled with happiness and purpose. This has given me a sense of belonging in the world, and in my family.

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Another, new improvement, is that I am now officially a student! I start, Foundations of Art and Design in September 2011. I have a room in a two bedroom apartment, with a girl I have yet to meet but have been in touch with for a few weeks now.
So far so good.

For now I am working and trying to focus on things with my boyfriend, making sure that we meet the goals we set, separately and as a couple ..
Its not always easy.. but this is the way it is for now.




Wishing you the best,